Dreaming of spring.

(I wanted to add this photo because I took this in Italy last and I'm rather proud of it!)

Today I am in an extremely good mood. Mainly because I got good feedback on an essay I was convinced I had done terribly in (completing a 3000 word essay within 5 hours of the deadline will never leave you feeling confident). Another reason is because I'm now totally aware that I'm in the final semester of university. I know, it's supposed to be a sad thing... but to be honest I'm totally ready to move on. It's funny because everyone has been talking about their plans for when they finish and how they are scared but I haven't really been ready to share my plans completely. This is because I know that people will think I'm foolish, I get that feeling already because of what I study, but the only person that seems to really understand is my mother. She's very supportive of my plans even though they hold no guarantee. Of course I plan on getting a job, perhaps working in a shop or a cafe so I have an income, but I really need to pursue what I want to do because I refuse to resign to a less-than-fulfilling life. You see, I feel that I would gain more knowledge and strength in life trying and working for I want than just feeling like I don't have what it takes. Although it's clear that I still have anxieties about letting people in, the truth is I don't want to know what people think. I've spent my entire life trying to justify why I am the way I am and I now realise that I don't need to do that- not for anyone. I know my reasons and that's enough for me. If I don't succeed then that's fine. I've tried and I can move on. But I will always know that I tried. I'm a big cliché.

Wow, that was pretty serious stuff. Shall we move onto something lighter? I'm looking out my window right now and it is SUNNY. This is making me lust for spring. I'm going away in June to Barcelona with my boyfriend which I'm very excited for. I have started a healthy eating and exercise regime in preparation for this. Well actually I would like this to be a lifestyle change. I'm not fat but neither am I thin, and I'd like to be thin. I can't wait to wear shorts and get a decent tan on my pale olive skin. Barcelona is going to be SO much fun! I love Spanish food and culture, but what is really wonderful about Barcelona are the art galleries. I've already been to Barcelona three times but haven't been able to visit any of the galleries because these have been only one day visits (the last few years I have been on cruise ships with my parents). It'll be nice for only me and my boyfriend to go because we rarely get any time alone. Did I tell you he got me a Pandora bracelet for my 21st? What a legend. Anyway, in the run up to this holiday I will be posting some outfit posts- a)to show you what outfit I plan on wear. and b) to show you my weight loss progress. I'm feeling pretty positive about it all.
Anyway I have added some images of Barcelona to add some colour to this post! Have any of you been to Barcelona?

 This is Guadi's apartments which is where I've already been!
I'm looking forward to seeing them again. :)