Yorkshire love.

I was sitting in Starbucks messing around with my camera (when I should have been doing my dissertation work) when I realised that I don't really have any photos of York. I finish university in May so I thought that I would start taking photos of things that I find beautiful here in York. I thought that I would take a few photos a week and post them on here. Enjoy!

Sorry- this one is a bit blurry!

Teddy Bear tea rooms. :)

"Obviously, Doctor, you've never been a thirteen year old girl."

Style inspiration: The Virgin Suicides. Summer, floral patterns, pale skin, full length dresses, polaroid film, knee high socks, pale pink and antique.

Who said romance was dead?

Hello! First and foremost I would like to say hello to my new followers! I haven't had any new ones in ages but I think that was due to my lack of posting. But I'm feeling more inspired to write recently. Always good news.
These past few days have been pretty lovely, I can't not brag to be honest. I was feeling pretty low because I was homesick and missing my boyfriend, then, out of nowhere, he surprised me by appearing in my living room! I was so completely delighted. He took me out to Nandos and then we went out for cocktails and got  merry. I was so completely happy. We went to Evil Eye Lounge where we enjoyed our very strong cocktails (one that we shared had Rum and Bohemian Absinthe in, yumm). We went to Evil Eye with our two friends Ruth and Noah, who are also in love. Anyway I won't tell you the full details of the evening and I'm pretty sure it will all sound sickly sweet to you. All I know is that I'm very lucky and very happy in life! I really hope the rest of you enjoy Valentine's, whether it is with a special someone or not.

Photos are from flickr.

The sad truth.

If you know me there is one definitive feature of my personality- I love cats. Not in the sense that I think "Oh there's a cat. How cute!" but more like "Oh my fucking god, how cute is that cat?! Come here kitty..." *slips cat into my bag*. It's almost unhealthy. But I realised that my love is more of an obsession when I was just flicking through some holiday photos... 

This is the Coliseum. If you click on this you can actually see the cat against the wall.

Funny story about this. This is also Rome and this is the location where Caesar was killed. My father was beyond annoyed that I actually didn't take a photo of the entire place. Only this cat...

So as you can see... I have an issue. At my house, here in York, we (as in I) have encouraged a few cats to stop by. I have cat food in my cupboard. But back at home (in County Durham) I have my one true pet- Sally. She's the laziest, fattest cat ever. But I love her.

Dreaming of spring. #2

I can't stop thinking about spring and summer today. I love the sun.

Photos from Flickr and Tumblr.

Dreaming of spring.

(I wanted to add this photo because I took this in Italy last and I'm rather proud of it!)

Today I am in an extremely good mood. Mainly because I got good feedback on an essay I was convinced I had done terribly in (completing a 3000 word essay within 5 hours of the deadline will never leave you feeling confident). Another reason is because I'm now totally aware that I'm in the final semester of university. I know, it's supposed to be a sad thing... but to be honest I'm totally ready to move on. It's funny because everyone has been talking about their plans for when they finish and how they are scared but I haven't really been ready to share my plans completely. This is because I know that people will think I'm foolish, I get that feeling already because of what I study, but the only person that seems to really understand is my mother. She's very supportive of my plans even though they hold no guarantee. Of course I plan on getting a job, perhaps working in a shop or a cafe so I have an income, but I really need to pursue what I want to do because I refuse to resign to a less-than-fulfilling life. You see, I feel that I would gain more knowledge and strength in life trying and working for I want than just feeling like I don't have what it takes. Although it's clear that I still have anxieties about letting people in, the truth is I don't want to know what people think. I've spent my entire life trying to justify why I am the way I am and I now realise that I don't need to do that- not for anyone. I know my reasons and that's enough for me. If I don't succeed then that's fine. I've tried and I can move on. But I will always know that I tried. I'm a big cliché.

Wow, that was pretty serious stuff. Shall we move onto something lighter? I'm looking out my window right now and it is SUNNY. This is making me lust for spring. I'm going away in June to Barcelona with my boyfriend which I'm very excited for. I have started a healthy eating and exercise regime in preparation for this. Well actually I would like this to be a lifestyle change. I'm not fat but neither am I thin, and I'd like to be thin. I can't wait to wear shorts and get a decent tan on my pale olive skin. Barcelona is going to be SO much fun! I love Spanish food and culture, but what is really wonderful about Barcelona are the art galleries. I've already been to Barcelona three times but haven't been able to visit any of the galleries because these have been only one day visits (the last few years I have been on cruise ships with my parents). It'll be nice for only me and my boyfriend to go because we rarely get any time alone. Did I tell you he got me a Pandora bracelet for my 21st? What a legend. Anyway, in the run up to this holiday I will be posting some outfit posts- a)to show you what outfit I plan on wear. and b) to show you my weight loss progress. I'm feeling pretty positive about it all.
Anyway I have added some images of Barcelona to add some colour to this post! Have any of you been to Barcelona?

 This is Guadi's apartments which is where I've already been!
I'm looking forward to seeing them again. :)

This house.

This house whispers to me. Since you died I swear I can hear you moving in its walls. I want to scratch the wallpaper away and find the cracks. I want to peer in because I want to see you again, pale and transparent like mist. You only ever used to speak to me in my dreams but I haven’t slept in months.

I close the curtains because I’m frightened of the light. I sit here in the darkness waiting for you to return to me. My soul is beginning to fade into the shadows and I no longer can sense the differences between myself and the dark. 

The ghost trees.

I have been walking for days now and I am exhausted. The air has the dewy smell of dawn and all I want is to depart in its pale blue mist. My knees buckle and I collapse into the damp grass, engulfed by its wilderness. My eyes are heavenward but I can barely keep them open. I feel the breath of the living earth on my cheeks, but the silent sounds of the dead haunts me.

I feel ready and calm, and as I’m just about open my eyes the sudden sound of air whispering through the branches of trees captures me momentarily. It’s as though I have fallen into a dream. I lift my eyes to the sky to find that there are no trees at all. But I can hear the soft clatter of their leaves? The creaking of their ancient wood? I sit up and I can no longer smell the dampness of the morning. I can only see the shadows of the trees that used to be there.

Oh my goodness!

Well hello there!

Spring

Full stride. Golden, spring air and knee-high grass. I can already hear the crush of the surf as I approach the cliffs edge. From a distance it probably looks like I’m going to jump but I’m not. I sit close to the edge and peer over. This place is heaven. The skies are pale blue and I wish I could live in them for eternity. I throw my head back to admire the splendour of it all and I’m so in love that I my body falls backwards into the wilderness of the earth. I close my eyes to listen to the earth breathe in. I want to forget myself. I want to forget everything.